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They say a picture is worth a thousand words. We should all be so lucky.

After looking at my most recent headshot (thank you Tara Polcaro), I started to think: if someone was going to write a caption under my photo, what would it say? And how would I feel about that?

Would they say I’m an advocate? I’ve been involved in a lot of diabetes advocacy over the last few years, so I think that would be okay. But… would I feel I’m the kind of advocate someone says I am? I don’t know.

Would they say I’m kind? Being kind is a big deal, especially these days. Treating someone like they matter is important. If someone would say I’m unkind, that would hurt. I would try to fix that about myself.

Would someone think I was worth knowing? Should I care if someone thought I was worth knowing? I care if you want to be friends, or if you want to talk about an issue together. If you don’t, then I guess you don’t think I’m worth knowing anyway.

It seems I have a lot more questions than answers.

I’m at a point in my life and career where I care more about substance than about recognition, more about the kind of person I am than about the accolades. I never imagined I would feel this way about things, but here I am.

I’m not one of those people who says, “Screw what anyone else thinks… it’s what I think that matters!”. Really, both opinions matter. I need to be self-examining enough to know if my heart is in the right place… vulnerable enough to ask for help when I need it… strong enough to listen when criticism is shared.

And smart enough to recognize when people are full of shit. Just thought I’d add that in.

In the end, I have to be happy with who I am; and continue working to be the kind of person I want to be in that caption.

Truth be told, I don’t really like the idea of being framed. Like my diabetes, the definition of who I am changes almost daily. I’m okay with saying my caption should change constantly. What matters is if I’m headed in the right direction, wherever that might be.

Traces of Diabetes. What it means to me.


I guess all of us see something like this from time to time. Especially if you spend too much time looking down at the ground while you’re walking (subject for another post at another time). I saw this test strip as I was walking on the sidewalk in the neighborhood where I work.

Lots of people have talked about their experiences coming face-to-face with diabetes in the wild. Often it’s something innocuous like this; sometimes it’s a real life meeting with another PWD. Reactions seem to range from the funny to the poignant to the ironic. Let me tell you what it means to me when I see something like this.

Often, when I come across evidence that someone else with my condition is around, I’m almost… shocked. I go through about 98 percent of my life never coming into contact with anyone living with or affected by diabetes. Actually, I’m almost never coming into contact with anyone who wants to reveal those things. So I kind of forget that there are others out there. You would think that with all of the blogs, Twitter feeds, etc. I read, and my own participation in social media, it would be enough to help me remember that there are actual real people going through the same things that I do every day.

But still, when I saw that test strip, it was a big surprise. To me, it wasn’t something exciting as much as it was a slap in the face. Guess what? You’re not the only one, stupid. And no, you haven’t really connected with any PWDs in your part of the world yet.

I’ve tried, but all previous attempts just kind of fizzled. The reasons are many and varied, and in some cases, I’m the one to blame. I’d like to think that my biggest obstacle to connecting in real life with others like me is my schedule, which has been busier in the last two years than it was the previous ten. The truth is, it’s both an obstacle and an excuse. I don’t have a lot of extra time, but I have a little. Maybe that little extra time can be used for some grass roots effort somehow. I don’t know.

What I do know is that I’ve changed a lot in the past couple of years. If I want that change to be even more meaningful, I’m going to have to find a way to do something for others living with and affected by diabetes right here in my own community. I’ve just got to figure out how to make that happen.

Heightened Awareness.

Due to this being Diabetes Awareness Month, and the fact that I’m more aware of diabetes in general in the past year, I almost wasn’t surprised when I found this on the walk outside of my gym:

Hope your post-Thanksgiving week is off to a great start!

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